i so cant fucking wait to get secondary school and o levels over.and.done.with.
really lah, most friends i have in that dumb instituition (instituition seh..) are superficial.
maybe except one or two. yes. that many. maybe based on the folowing factors:
- im quite anti-social.
- i will not stand hanging around with people whom i know are constantly bitching about me, just to feel included or crap. because it really is not worth it at all.
- i always judge people by what they wear.
- im just plain weird at times.
- i have long fingers.
i even have a friend that dare claimed "sial arh! firdaos! i have always been there for you sia!", when she:
- couldnt really give a shit.
- tell people almost everything i told her.
- count pretending to care as 'caring' enough.
- left me to rot when i fell asleep in class, when we are supposed to go to a venue other than our class for a lesson. (yes, ended up being 'stranded' alone.)
- just really couldnt give a shit.
also, a self proclaimed best friend that:
- only talks to me when nawal is not around.
- left me to rot.
- pulls a 'cant-be-bothered-fuck-away-from-me face' whenever i suceed in anything. yes seriously, a simple 'congratulations' or some shit like that will do. but noooo.....
- really just could not give a fuck.
yeah, but u know, maybe im just boring or something and maybe i cant really blame you for just constantly ignoring me and crap, like you said, there are reasons behind your actons and crap, but even after the conference that involve me pushing down your oh so delicious chilli crab cup noodle to the cold cement floor, things have changed this much *puts index finger 1 millimetre apart from thumb*.
it really is sad.
and im sad.
i didnt do so well for my mid year.
plus i have to go to the dumb 'intensive malay nonsense' later.
oh, and i got A1 for art! 79/100!!!!!!!1!111!!eleven!!!!!!1111!!!!!!1!!!
yes! IM BOASTING! YES YES! BUT IM ALLOWED TO FREAK OUT OVER THIS, I REALLY PUT IN ALOT OF EFFORT FOR MY ART. SO YEAH.
fang gue gue! REPEAT AFTER ME! FANG GUE GUE!
